Welcome...

If you have found yourself reading this post, then chances are you are either divorcing or divorced. You might not be either and simply thinking about divorce. Either way, welcome.

If the photo on the left looks like your current situation and you are thinking it is time to end your marriage, the first thing I want to ask you is, have you tried everything in your power to fix it? I know you're probably thinking "um, duh, that is why I am here." I only ask because what you are about to go through is going to be the biggest emotional roller coaster of your life.

Deciding to end your marriage is never easy. And even the mere thought of it can be scary. You start asking questions such as "what life will I have now?", "what will I do without him/her?" "what happens next?" All very valid questions. And in short, the answer is simple, you will live. I promise, you will live. I know it sounds harsh right now, and probably mentally, unrealistic. But trust me, there is light.

I am currently ending my 15 year marriage to my very first boyfriend. I think the friends and family were more shocked then he was. We were kids when we got back together and married, he was 20 and I was 21. We were fresh off of a five year break and was back together just four months before heading to the courthouse. We were doomed from the start. In hindsight, we probably should have remained friends. We for sure should have never entered into a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, let alone a marriage, before reintroducing ourselves to one another. The fact of the matter is, we both had the beginning of our adult relationships shaped by other people. I had a boyfriend right before we got back together and he had, had a child with someone else. We rode the way of this being "us" a tale of true love finally coming together, at least that is how we were always seen.

So who was to blame for the destruction of our marriage? We both were. Regardless to whatever, there is never just one person to blame when a marriage concludes. One person maybe more at fault, but both will carry some guilt. We were never good at communication. See, doomed from the start. We talked at each other. We talked and interacted more on a friend level than a married couple. We were too comfortable with each other to have been married. Does that make sense? We didn't have the butterflies.

Who filed and why now? I filed. And it was a matter of now or never. There was a clear moment that happened in our marriage that I believe God stepped in and used a family member as a vessel. Because it was at that point that I decided to leave. The actual incident, I may get more into that in the blog, but it was my way out.

I know you are scared. I know you have uncertainty. You may even be second guessing your choice to file or maybe thinking to call it off if you have filed. All of your feeling are valid. And you're not alone in them. I want you to remember Jennifer Weiner, Author of "Fly Away Home" said "nobody ever died of divorce"..

I say all of this to say, welcome. Welcome to your tribe. Welcome to the next chapter of your brand new life. What you will find here, is open communication from me. Honesty, if it forces you to dig deep within yourself. You will find encouragement and scriptures to get you through. You will find out that you are in control of your life now, and your life in the future through manifestation and the Law of Attraction. So stay with me, we will get through this, I promise.

I am. I have. I desire. I deserve.